Today I reconnected with an old friend who shared some more exercises on releasing energies of the past, present and future that are unhealthy. It was easier to do the exercises this time cause my body, mind and spirit has come to the end of holding onto anything that doesn't work anymore. Or should I say situations that have killed me enough times that I was forced to learn all the lessons deeply and completely.

I sorted out all my e-mails from how many years and deleted over 1000 e-mails. Its a wonder how I needed to connect to so many things to make me feel real.

I am only beginning to become real now by participating in my own life. However I must have needed so much stimulation of every kind over 20 years to finally wake me up!